This is the 7th of 31 blog posts that I am going to write in 31 days.
When I got done writing yesterdays post and saw the topic for today’s article it left me wondering just how deep I really wanted to go with this article. I have a few ideas about what direction this article can go but have decided that I often wonder……. about what my life would have been like if my mother had not passed away when I was 7.
For the past two days I have been writing about personality traits and I have to wonder if the traits that I am both proud and not proud of would have been different if I had grown up knowing my mother. Don’t get me wrong I had a good childhood regardless of my mothers passing. My dad remarried and my step-mom did the best she could under the circumstances.
Would I be as optimistic as I am if I didn’t lose my mom so young? I absolutely think that going through such a traumatic life event at such an influential age forced me to focus on anything and everything positive that I could . To this day when I start to spiral down on a negative path I catch myself and force myself to find a positive, no matter how small, in the situation I am facing. Would any of my personality traits that I am not proud of be different as well?
Now that I am married and have a son of my own I wonder just how different my life would have been or if it would have been different at all. It really makes you think that about destiny and if at key moments in your life would be the same regardless of the path you followed to get there. Would I have still met my wife, got married and had a child with her?
Obviously all of these questions will go unanswered and I really don’t like to dwell on this topic for too long. What I do like to focus on is that I am thankful for each and every day that I get to spend with family and friends and that I am happier than I have ever been!